Poetry

We’re all home…now what?

What to do when the kids are home 

and we’re deemed to stay put now?

I wonder if this is going to be smooth, 

and I really don’t fully see how.

Something serious inside says

we’ve got to get it together.

Got to make the schedule, set our routine;

to my way you will tether. 

That thing cares a lot 

about enforcing every “rule”,

but can’t exactly fix the problem of discord 

when none of us can keep our cool.

Yep, it’s hard to find the balance 

between I and we,

between control 

and let it flow completely free.

When I have one idea,

they may come up with another.

Sometimes I wonder…

why even bother.

Getting on the same page

can feel like lifting heavy stones.

Ahhh, I both love and hate 

being locked up in this home. 

They say home is where the heart is,

but this heart just fucking hurts.

I’m feeling a little crazy

Like I might go batass bizerk.

And, yet, there are other parts of me,

More evolved, 

more conscious & more free.

They say “Bring it on. For we know,

this is exactly what makes for massive 

personal development 

and conscious human growth. 

See the patterns, 

observe the ego, and love it all anyway.

We are infinite, so peace and ease 

will just come along another day.

or in this moment now, 

where there’s just enough space 

for a long quiet pause, helpful for going within 

to re-align with the #1 cause.

Ahhh…HERE!

HERE! 

In the depths of my inner being,

beyond my heart wall,

beyond the pain, the judgment, the frustration & the should’s, 

I feel the TRUE heart call.

It wants to remind me 

of my wisdom and grace

and the joy that I feel 

when I look at another person’s face.

Yes! HERE!

Ahhh…I moan,

as I sink in deeper 

and hear my soul song.

Forgiveness sets me free.

Grace helps me to see.

Gratitude helps me to know.

Breath helps me to let go,

and raise my vibration

to where I want it to be.

Yes!

I can feel & heal,

as I pause, breathe & sink in 

to write this poetry.

Fast forward a few weeks in

and I’m really seeing all we have to gain

by slowing down, taking a pause

in order to soak up this gentle, rejuvenating rain.

Rain which comes down 

from the sky.

as the earth perks back up. 

Even the himalayas are now able to say hi!

I can thank corona for 

what it is helping to create.

More time together as a family

surprisingly means less anger, frustration and debate.

There is more time for patience 

and the opportunity to be kind.

To go deep within and truly address 

the fear, the anxiety, the deep stress that is mine.

To stop subconsciously projecting it onto those 

whom I love the most.

To really look within and 

give much needed attention to the holy ghost,

those ghostly parts that I’ve hidden away 

for many years,

because they hurt, weren’t safe for survival 

and were clouded with fears.

But in this time, what is brought to light 

is the wisdom of my Soul 

that I CAN recover, nurture and heal those parts of me, 

which will restore my ability to feel and live as whole.

I can show up that way for myself and in connection with others.

This is the change I wish to see.

To live in love, in peace, with care 

and dance alongside others +  the earth in harmony.

It’s happening in my internal realm.

Into my family it’s rippling out.

Also, the earth is clearing and shining again

I have to believe this is what corona is all about.

Ah, gratitude is absolutely the key, which 

opens the door of possibility.

Through all of this chaos CAN emerge 

a chance for us to live harmonious, happy & free!