We’re all home…now what?
What to do when the kids are home
and we’re deemed to stay put now?
I wonder if this is going to be smooth,
and I really don’t fully see how.
Something serious inside says
we’ve got to get it together.
Got to make the schedule, set our routine;
to my way you will tether.
That thing cares a lot
about enforcing every “rule”,
but can’t exactly fix the problem of discord
when none of us can keep our cool.
Yep, it’s hard to find the balance
between I and we,
and let it flow completely free.
When I have one idea,
they may come up with another.
Sometimes I wonder…
why even bother.
Getting on the same page
can feel like lifting heavy stones.
Ahhh, I both love and hate
being locked up in this home.
They say home is where the heart is,
but this heart just fucking hurts.
I’m feeling a little crazy
Like I might go batass bizerk.
And, yet, there are other parts of me,
more conscious & more free.
They say “Bring it on. For we know,
this is exactly what makes for massive
and conscious human growth.
See the patterns,
observe the ego, and love it all anyway.
We are infinite, so peace and ease
will just come along another day.
or in this moment now,
where there’s just enough space
for a long quiet pause, helpful for going within
to re-align with the #1 cause.
In the depths of my inner being,
beyond my heart wall,
beyond the pain, the judgment, the frustration & the should’s,
I feel the TRUE heart call.
It wants to remind me
of my wisdom and grace
and the joy that I feel
when I look at another person’s face.
as I sink in deeper
and hear my soul song.
Forgiveness sets me free.
Grace helps me to see.
Gratitude helps me to know.
Breath helps me to let go,
and raise my vibration
to where I want it to be.
I can feel & heal,
as I pause, breathe & sink in
to write this poetry.
Fast forward a few weeks in
and I’m really seeing all we have to gain
by slowing down, taking a pause
in order to soak up this gentle, rejuvenating rain.
Rain which comes down
from the sky.
as the earth perks back up.
Even the himalayas are now able to say hi!
I can thank corona for
what it is helping to create.
More time together as a family
surprisingly means less anger, frustration and debate.
There is more time for patience
and the opportunity to be kind.
To go deep within and truly address
the fear, the anxiety, the deep stress that is mine.
To stop subconsciously projecting it onto those
whom I love the most.
To really look within and
give much needed attention to the holy ghost,
those ghostly parts that I’ve hidden away
for many years,
because they hurt, weren’t safe for survival
and were clouded with fears.
But in this time, what is brought to light
is the wisdom of my Soul
that I CAN recover, nurture and heal those parts of me,
which will restore my ability to feel and live as whole.
I can show up that way for myself and in connection with others.
This is the change I wish to see.
To live in love, in peace, with care
and dance alongside others + the earth in harmony.
It’s happening in my internal realm.
Into my family it’s rippling out.
Also, the earth is clearing and shining again
I have to believe this is what corona is all about.
Ah, gratitude is absolutely the key, which
opens the door of possibility.
Through all of this chaos CAN emerge
a chance for us to live harmonious, happy & free!